Failure .. This little word can define how someone feels about mistakes or misfortune in life. It can be a terrifying word for some because they will not allow failure in their life .. But can you really stop it .. No . Is there not a moment in everyone’s life that something did not go just right , a new job didn’t work out . What about relationships or friendships ? Do we define a ” fail ” as being a ” fallure ” ?
I used to be one of those that was terrified by the word. I would cover my ears and shake my head no .. I can not fail !! Oh how wrong I was ! It took me many years and many ” fails ” to completely understand that I would have a failure at some point in my life and it was ok . It did not mean I was a complete ” failure in life ” .
I have examined the times in my life that I failed .. Some were by my own hands , but some were just the way it was. It was life .. I always had a horrible habit of placing my expectations high on myself than others ever did . It was a ” me ” issue . I felt there was no room in life to fail . I would beat myself and tear down everything I set out to do if I did not make the cut .. It took a long , long look for me to understand that I was not perfect or the one that succeeded in everything I set out to be ..
As I studied myself , I saw it was turning out to be a pride issue for me . I did not want others to see me fail and I did not leave room for it . I had to be the Superwoman in Life ..
Why was it so important to me ? I was being prideful. I was not necessarily trying all the time to succeed for myself but it was for others to see as well .
Ouch !!!!! Oh how did that smart when I figured it out ! My eyes became open when and clear when I started following the Lord . I started to read many passages in the bible about pride . What a time I had with trying to tip toe around this .. My toes were pretty sore for awhile .
I remember James 4: 6 ..
But he gives us even more grace to stand against such evil desires . As the Scriptures say , God opposes the proud but favors the humble .
Oh I how prayed for the Lord to forgive my ways .. After I read this verse , I was shamed because I did not want to be or do anything that God opposed to . I had always thought I was a humble person but looking deeper into my heart , I was prideful at times .. My way of thinking of failure define this .
I have now excepted and learn from my failures . I welcome the lessons I have and will learn from them . The Lord does not approve of a prideful heart and I did not want to be disapproved of by my Father . As faith and strength grew , I see and seek ways to improve myself . I do not let my failures and flaws define me . I let my love and faith define my heart.
My lesson : I want to please my Father in Heaven , not others .. I have replaced my pride with learning and acceptance of ” I will make mistakes and things will not always plan out the way my eyes see ..