Sisters , Have you ever had a time in your life you felt you just didn’t fit in ? It could have been at work , clubs , or churches , maybe just in life general . I certainly have and it took a long look at myself to see I didn’t have to “fit in “.
As a child growing up in a mid size town in KY , I struggled with fitting in most of my childhood and into adulthood . We didn’t have much growing up but we grateful for what we did have . I didn’t have many friends as a kid and as I grew older it became harder for me to make new friends . I never understood why it was so difficult for me . I always had in the back of my mind it was because we didn’t have what most kids had and I was just the ” poor ugly kid ” and the ” nobody ” .
Time went by and I started college . I , the awkward kid still had the problem of not fitting in anywhere . By this time I felt like something was really wrong with me . ” I’m I that weird ” was the question always on my mind.
I was taking an EMT class and one day I was at my place . This was me ! I met new people that had the same type of thinking as I did . I know that sounds odd but it does take a different person to do ambulance work , that’s why I fit in . I finished my degree and worked as a critical care Paramedic.. I found were I fit … I thought
As years went by I started to have that self esteem and thoughts of I didn’t belong . I was different . I was not the girlie type , or the popular type , I didn’t know what type I was . I did know all I ever wanted to do was to help people even when I couldn’t help myself . I was lost . I fell into the game of trying to fit in and started living a hard life . I fit in alright ,I fit into the life of a horrible person that placed me into a dark and destructive time in my life. I left Jesus behind and I felt dead inside.
It took me many , many years to find myself and to see what was important . It took me hitting the bottom of all things possible to see God did not make me to ” fit in ” . He made me to STAND OUT !
I placed my life into the hands of God and I confessed my sins , hit my knees, and accepted Jesus . I knew the very moment I felt the Holy Spirit touch my heart. I knew I was saved !!! I was no longer the weird kid that didn’t fit in .. I was a child of God ! I was the daughter of a King !
My new Journey in life has been such a story of its own . I see that my life has never been made for me to fit into the crowd. It was to stand out , to care for others in away that many couldn’t. I now know my way of thinking and my own spirit was made this way by God. I shine in my own way .
As JESUS speaks in Matthew 5 : 14 , 15 ( NLT) speaks
14 You are the light of the world- like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden .
15 No one lights a lamp and then puts it understand a basket . Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand where it gives light to everyone in the house.
I figured out I was not awkward nor weird, I was me . I was not to be like others . Those years of trying to be something I was not made me awkward . I did have struggles as a kid on into my adult years but I see now I was not the ” nobody ” I had thought for so many years..
God had his plans for me set many years ago and I just worried about things of this world and how to fit in it.
John 15 : 19 ( NLT)
The world would love you as one of its own if you belonged to it , but you are no longer part of the world, so it hates you .
Today , I have come across a few times I didn’t fit in and I was very receptive and ok with this . I did not put on the facade of a life of society. I stood out on my own , with Jesus with me all the way . I didn’t want to fit in . If I have to fit in to a situation it tells me I don’t need to be there . After I dissolved this situation I was disliked but this was a worldly matter . The light of Jesus gave me what I needed to see past the world and to see into the love of my Lord . I followed the lead of the Lord .
Remember in life you are somebody , pay no attention to fitting it . The old saying ” if your not somebody you are nobody ” is not true , to me it is one false saying ..
You accept Jesus my brothers and sisters , then you are a child of God!!! That’s somebody !!! That’s all you need to be !!!
Jesus did not fit in … Jesus stood out !!!!!!!